A lamb who went astray, has come back home today

The last two days have been very stressful and hectic. I've had a ton of homework, been running around all the time, and had some issues with some friends that really brought me down. This week I skipped church because I had stayed up to late and decided I would rather sleep in. After that my week spiraled downward. At the college I go to there is a place called BCM which stands for Baptist Campus Ministries. I used to go there all the time and to their worship services. Recently though I have not been going.

Ever since a few months ago I became more wrapped up in myself than Jesus. I focused more on what I wanted and have been lead astray basically. I focused more on boys who gave me attention and made me happy. What I realized is the "affection" they showed for me was only temporary. Their interest fades away. Jesus never leaves. He will love me in my times of happiness and sadness, unfortunately, the latter of the two has been happening more recently.

Tonight, unplanned, for the first time, I decided to go with a few friends who were going to a CRU worship service. CRU is also known as Campus Crusades for Christ. Just being there in that setting with people who love God and are so positive, I felt like I was home.

As the speaker was talking, I began to think of my life in these past few months, and realized that I have been so scattered, confused, upset, mislead, and unhappy. I realized that the one thing missing in my life was Jesus. My life at the time was going so well, I felt like I did not need Him as much, but He showed me by making the happiness I felt very temporary.

I have learned my lesson the hard way, but that is normally how God works in my life. After being in the environment I love tonight, with fellow Christians, I am ready to live my life right again. I am happy to say I will be starting my morning devotions in Ephesians once again.

I know there will be more times in my life where I will stray again, but every time God brings me back my passion is renewed. I guess all that there is left to say is a simple three words that I want to shout from a mountain: I love Jesus!