I feel like I have been in a weird funk ever since I came back from spring break. I actually started to miss home and wanted to go back because it was so relaxing. I came back to school and was bombarded with homework and exams over things that really do not matter. It made me wonder what the heck I'm even doing here.
I'm so sick of sitting around writing papers and taking tests in order to get an A in all of my classes. Everyone out there is looking for someone who has a degree and those who have a degree get paid more. I've always been the kid who looked forward to college and loved taking classes and was really smart. Now i'm just tired of it. I feel like college is holding me back.
I keep seeing new shows coming out on tv and new movies in the theater and I keep thinking to myself I could be working on a set right now. Of course you need experience, but I really don't think the director is going to care if their grip got an A on a paper they slaved over on topics like Beowulf or Sir Gawain.
This is why I am seriously concidering changing my majors to minors and adding Tv/film production as a major because then I can actually get out there and do the things I love rather than being cooped up in a dorm room freaking out about exams over math and literature. I just want to create and film! Geeze!
Over spring break there was a moment when I went to the playground at our middle school with a couple of my friends. They were discussing something about girls. I really wasn't paying attention to them at all. I just kept on swinging and staring at the clear blue sky. I started to think about what it would be like to fly. I just wanted to let go of the swing and see if i could really fly. I hadn't felt so free in such a long time. I was really upset when my friends wanted to leave and do something in their words "less childish." They didn't understand the freedom I felt.
That moment has stuck with me ever since I left to come back to college. I keep searching for that feeling again. The feeling of freedom and happiness. I just want to let go of the chain links and soar.
I'm so sick of sitting around writing papers and taking tests in order to get an A in all of my classes. Everyone out there is looking for someone who has a degree and those who have a degree get paid more. I've always been the kid who looked forward to college and loved taking classes and was really smart. Now i'm just tired of it. I feel like college is holding me back.
I keep seeing new shows coming out on tv and new movies in the theater and I keep thinking to myself I could be working on a set right now. Of course you need experience, but I really don't think the director is going to care if their grip got an A on a paper they slaved over on topics like Beowulf or Sir Gawain.
This is why I am seriously concidering changing my majors to minors and adding Tv/film production as a major because then I can actually get out there and do the things I love rather than being cooped up in a dorm room freaking out about exams over math and literature. I just want to create and film! Geeze!
Over spring break there was a moment when I went to the playground at our middle school with a couple of my friends. They were discussing something about girls. I really wasn't paying attention to them at all. I just kept on swinging and staring at the clear blue sky. I started to think about what it would be like to fly. I just wanted to let go of the swing and see if i could really fly. I hadn't felt so free in such a long time. I was really upset when my friends wanted to leave and do something in their words "less childish." They didn't understand the freedom I felt.
That moment has stuck with me ever since I left to come back to college. I keep searching for that feeling again. The feeling of freedom and happiness. I just want to let go of the chain links and soar.
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